Being Still is Moving Forward

I woke this morning with a more optimistic outlook and the body to match.  Relatively pain free movement is mine! Yesterday was different - see yesterday's post.

Yesterday I was perfect; it was perfect.  I know this.

Yesterday I asked the question: 'How can I move forward when all I want is to be still?'  Rumi shares with us: 'the answer is in the question'   So here is the answer:  'I move forward by being still' -- The answer also comes from my beautiful friend, Janet and my new brilliant friend Megan.  Who posted wonderful comments stating the same on my FB page.

Sometimes in the pain we get lost to what is real. What is real?  That all is well, this too shall pass and it is perfect.

I know I have written about this before, yet the pain pulls me in and I sometimes get lost.  Sharing was my way of helping myself and allowing others to help me as well.    Pain is fine, so I went with it, rode it through the day.  I was and still am grateful I had scheduled a clear day on Monday; I allowed myself to be in it with a few resisting thoughts (as per the blog post yesterday).   It may have moved through me, because today I feel good, my good.

I choose to see myself as healthy - and I move with the feeling of being well and as such lately I have been doing more; I am sure you have done the same a time or two. Yesterday's pain was overwhelming, intense and I was in shock - it was a visitor from a long ago time.  I am now glad I answered the door welcomed it in.  I had a brilliant a-ha this morning - the thought had crossed my mind before - however it now resides in me, a belief.  It is this: when I am busy all weekend, teaching, facilitating, doing more -- Monday is a time of rest and recoup. A gathering of wellness.  An integration  time, a release time - a nap day.  This fits perfect with my long held love of having Monday's off!

I was showered with love yesterday through supportive comments and healing actions.
Thank you.

One of my friends, Megan shared this beautiful piece from Paulo Coelho:

Ask a flower in the field: ‘Do you feel useful? After all, you do nothing but produce the same flowers over and over?’

And the flower will answer: ‘I am beautiful, and beauty is my reason for living.’

Ask the river: ‘Do you feel useful, given that all you do is to keep flowing in the same direction?’

And the river will answer: ‘I’m not trying to be useful, I’m trying to be a river.’

Don’t try to be useful. Try to be yourself: that is enough, and that makes all the difference.

Walk neither faster nor slower than your own soul. Because it is your soul that will teach you the usefulness of each step you take.Sometimes taking part in a great battle

But sometimes you can do that simply by smiling, for no reason, at someone you happen to pass in the street.

Without intending to, you might have saved the life of a complete stranger, who also thought he was useless and might have been ready to kill himself, until a smile gave him new hope and confidence.



Love to you

How do I Move Forward When All I Want is to be Still?

Yesterday I had the pleasure of hosting a Vision Board Experience. It was filled with joy, personal discovery, love and peace.  Women gathered, met and began to scan through hundreds of magazines - looking for the images and words to match the feelings and desires they wanted to have on their Vision Board.  The end results were varied and beautiful.  We shared, visualized and shared gratitude.

Now, I love hosting workshops or group experiences.  LOVE it.

What I am now coming to terms with is the aftermath of the all the prep ( which started with soup prep the night before and then up at 6 a.m. - to complete preparations - and then the workshop itself and then the take down). Normally I am not in a rush to put things away - I am blessed to have the space to leave items lingering around. Today, I thought I would start the clean up - however my body is in shut down mode.

I deal with a few issues, swollen injured ankle, bulging disc in my low back, degenerative discs in my neck and chronic pain and fatigue from fibromyalgia.  So last night after dinner and sitting for about an hour - movement without support was almost impossible.  Shuffle between rooms was my mode.

Today I am shut down completely. Twice in the hot tub last night, once before dinner and again at 12:30 a.m. when the shooting pains and aches could no longer be tolerated.  This morning -- my intention....full self care -- so I had a wonderful breakfast, started a fire, did very very gentle yoga - had two naps and have been moving as much as possible; I have an appointment for reflexology here at the house, which is fabulous - because I am not sure I can drive, I have taken pain medication and now all I want to do is cry.  Cry and release this pain that builds so intensely in my body.

So now I cry - now the pain is released.  The intensity of it eases; the ache lessens and I feel a bit more prepared to get on with the next part of my day.  A bit.

The question now becomes -- how do I continue to host workshops and be well?

How do I move forward when all I want to do is to be still.